What now?: A Ramble

Wow, it's been a really long time since I've posted anything of substance.  I know part of it is because even when I have free time, I still can't focus because of the constant checklist in my head of things I need to do.  Another part of it is because I sometimes wonder if anyone even reads this anymore.  I know LiveJournal still has a following.  I check posts on it regularly.  And copies of my blog go to Tumblr and Facebook, and a link to it goes to Twitter.  

Not that I write for others rather than myself, but it is a social outlet for me, and it seems that I do a lot of talking, but I don't get a lot of response.  

Yeah, I knew that was going to come out like I was an attention whore.  Hoped it wouldn't happen, but there it is.

I have so much to write about because there has been so much going on.  Plays, musicals, podcasts, self discovery, depressions, friendships, heartbreak, all of it.  So much going on.  And when I sit down to write, my brain gets in the way.

But today is the first day I have had off, and I mean a day that is mine to do with as I wish, in a very long time.  All I really have to do is some shopping, and make dinner.  That's it.  

True, I have two one video project to finish, and another one to begin.  The first is almost done, and to those waiting for it to finish, I can't apologize enough.  Time management isn't my strength, and it doesn't help that with everything going on, I don't have anyone to help me in times like this.  

But now that things are winding down to a manageable level, I am going to use what I have learned and make more time for myself.

So that is what I'm doing today, I'm going to take things one hour at a time.  Figure out how to finish up loose ends, how to get things back in order, and where I can go from here.  

I know that right now, I just want to write.  But before I can do that, I need to figure out what I want to write about.

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